why watch a sad film when you are miserable

Well i reckon i have been a bad daughter wife mother and friend, there i have said it,,i have just watched,,my sisters keeper,,,and i only cried twice,,,so it proves it,,i am bad,,surely i must be as every one else i know sobbed from beginning to end,,i didint,,it proves my theory i must be a bad person,,i didnt get it,,i cried when they went to the beach,,i cried when she showed her mum the book,,i thought how cameron diaz managed to put her makeup on every day no matter what,,i wondered how the lawyer guy was allowed to drive his fancy bentley when he was an epeletic,,i thought about the massive piece of madeira cake i was going to eat once the film finished,,i thought i would never interfere with my childrens lives aqgain,,ok maybe thats not quite true but i reckon i should at least try,,,and i thought about why they didnt choose a prettier child to die,,so there it proves it i am a bad person,so the madeira cake is gone,i am sitting here thinking how to fix shelleys latest trauma,,i am just thinking,,its been a funny old few days,,lovely wedding tired saturday,nopolo lots of calories,,good friends and fabulous girls,,so life isnt that bad,,colin and i have done alright,so maybe im not as bad as i think,,,,,oh no i am,,too prove it,,two old ladies sitting on a park bench,,mavis turned to ethel and said,,you know my husbands an angel and ethel said,,your lucky mines still breathing,,,......you see i am bad x