bad bad day

i knew the minute i walked into the unit colin was not well,,it was nothing specific,,just you know.anyway we followed our normal saturday regime,,lunch saturday papers..but things were sloweR than normal,,colin was not concentrating as he should.we chatted,i told him the latest episode in my traumatic life,,my blood pressure was rising, but i wasnt happy,,nurse was called and blood pressure heart ect was monitored.Blood pressure was very low,,thank god,,i hate to make a fuss,,and knowing my instincts were not as bad as i fear,,anyway the nursing staff took over and a while later things returned to nearly normal,,but colin was exhausted and so took to his bed.It was not a good day,,made both of us quite low,,he has being doing so well but today took its toll,,i then worry ,what would i do at home on our own,,it keeps me awake at night,,how will i cope,, and then i take a reality check,,WE will cope colin is there and he will help .The nonsense in other parts of my life,well who cares,i dont care what people say or think,they are of no importance to me,,i have important things to worry about,,my girls my family my real friends these are important,,well you just have to put up with insignificants as well in your life,,normaly you just rise above it but sometimes they play dirty and pull you into their game,,but when you stand back,,as colin tells me,,and look,,look properly you should laugh as they are nothings.