is this the middle of the night

I dont know anymore,,it seems normal to be up at this time,,ive neen to sleep,,and now im up ,,and then ill sleep,,,Im always surprised their is no one on face book,,are you all out enjoying yourself or are you in bed. I should have gone to see my chum Corrine,,i should have had a chat and a cup of tea and a giggle,,I should of but didnt,,I was too tired,,im always too tired.Colin is tired to,,bnut he has a right to be,,sometimes spasms wake him,,sometimes the snoring from other patients,,someone is always awake,,needing help,,and sometimes he is just so exhausted he sleeps.We sat in the sunshine today,,the costa del spinal,,,it was nice Colin read his paper,,i turned the pages,,we had a picnic and chatted.what he wanted to do was walk his dogs,,ride his horses,,have a run and even dare I say it cut the grass.He wanted his life back,,me too,,but wants dont get.so tomorrow he will read his paper and I will turn the pages and life will go on.We thought of escaping for a few hours,,book a taxi and go,,but where,,we sat we pondered and neither of us could think of a destination,,no malls for Colin,art galleries,,hmm not realy our thing,,but maybe,,its hard we dont know the area so we are limited in our choice,,and realy in our heart of hearts we know there is only one place we want to go and that is home,but that will come and for now we must be content and I will stop enroute to the west and buy a paper and Colin will read and I will turn the pages and time will pass