thank goodness for family and friends,,real friends

Breakfast at the clock,,this has become a bit of a sunday habit,,friends and family that are around and can make it gather in this cute little cafe and share their week over tea and bacon rolls,,it grounds me,,i can chat with people that know and understand me,,they listen and dont judge,,today it was Elaine my sister in law,,Corrine one of my oldest chums and a gathering of young pretty leggy girls,,a mixture of daughters and nieces.I was comfortable chatting about life,,my problems and theirs in the knowledge that it would go no further,no one could use any of this to upset and manipulate me,,no friends and family,,they are the only ones you can realy trust.So feeling more confident that life indeed did not matter outside my inner circle i headed west to my best friend Colin,,the one i turn to with all my problems,,the one that always knows what to say and do,,not that I always like it but then I know he understands.He was good ,,not great,,just good,,we trawled the sunday papers,,he advised me on the latest trauma,we chatted about the girls.We did not go out as we thought we might,,we just werent up for it,,its a big step,,one too far at this moment,,Im too fragile and Colin will do it at his own pace.Tomorrow we have another,,goal plan meeting,,,this is important meetings,,not meetings that you have to attend that are only there to make you feel bad,,,I know sometimes i do not make sense...but i cant explain,,it would only complicate things further,,but this is meetings that change peoples lifes,,,and this is my families life and thats worth fighting for,,the rest as they say is PANTS,,