and the bubble bursts again

Colins mark is still there,,faint very faint but unfortunately still there,this is bad news,,even if it was away tomorrow and the procedure for mobilisation began it would take 18 days,,and no guarantee it wouldnt reapear,,we have been there before.So what im trying to say is that Colin cant be home for his visit next week,,he wont be up as able,,so he has to wait,,Colin as usual is taking this with dignity,,me on the other hand is depressed,narky and wanting to crawl into that corner that beckons on a regular basis into my foetal position,,I know it would make no difference,,but for a few minutes as i rocked back and forward maybe it would feel good,,all those that do this cant be so wrong.Anyway if colin can smile and be gracious maybe i can too.Shelley has returned to aberdeen,,Melissa is heading to majorca and Louise is with the lovely James and so life goes on,,we will get through the next few weeks,,and if you see me heading towards a corner and i am rocking forward and backward very slowly dont fret,,i would probably become bored and lonely quite quickly and sort myself out and head west to tell colin what a hard day i was having,,and he will smile and nod and some how things will not feel as bad as they did.