when life turns round and bites you in the bum,,,,

Sometimes life is just not fair,,bad things happen to nice people,,well it seems like it,,this year has had so many ups and downs,,one year ago tomorrow i lost my uncle buck,,i miss him,,he was the love of my aunty helens life but he was loved by me and everyone that knew him,,then there was colin,,but we have come through this,,he is nearly home and to all that made this possible i will be eternaly gratefull,,louise and melissa both hospitalised,,but we are there for them,,and very recentley a friend and colleague,,derek had devestating news,,his adoring wife ,jane,and his daughter lauren,have my heart felt wishes,,they need all the strength they can muster,Derek has always been there for me but now i can only wait from afar,,but i need them to know im there,,how do you do that,,,how do you know what to do,,how do you know what to say,,i dont want to have these conversations with people,,its not fair,,i never know how to tell people about colin,,they always look so shocked and say im so sorry,,please dont be,,hes still here,,hes still colin and he still is the best guy i have ever known,,and the most loved by his girls and myself,,and its just one of those things that happen to good people.Derek is loved,,he knows that and that is the most important thing in life,,if your not loved go out and find someone now ,,life is short,,and all that is important is happiness,,not work,not money, not things,they all have there place but life is more its about THE PEOPLE THAT LOVE YOU,,and you are realy only rich if you know that,,colin and derek are both billionaires in that way,,i just hope they know that,,so tell the person you love now before its too late x