im scared oh so scared

3 more sleeps,,that is how many there is untill colin i hope is home for good,,,and im scared,,absaloutely terrified if im honest,No more bubble,,no just colin and I,Friday was spent eating homemade scones at the home of Mike and Bev,,Colins roommate in the southern for many months,,and there he was in his sitting room all relaxed and tanned,,not the grey palour that i was used to in his months in hospital.surounded by friends and family,,richard,the young injured diver,and his mum Jane on a fleeting visit from their homes in egypt and cyprus,,so life does go on.Tips on how to manage were given,,websites and creams,,laughter and memories,,sometimes no matter how people try they will never understand,,not like the families of spinal patients,,how could they,,its another world from carers to social workers,from hoists to the dreaded B word,,,bowels,,,,to which every conversation seems to return to.Promises made to meet soon i hit the M8,,two hours later i arrived in glasgow,,traffic was appauling,,but it was worth it Colin was there hyped up at the thought we were going in to our last weekend,,just one more sat and sun,,the worst of times.Les had been there the following evening with two of colins clients,,he was full of chat of the nights talk,it showed him hints of his old life and what life will be again,,bringing out the working colin,,he needs that,,and all going well will be returning in the next few weeks,,so 3 more sleeps and our new life begins,,very very scary,,and all we have to do is keep colin healthy till tuesday and he can come home,,