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So he was home,,his birthday,,louise and melissa colin and I,,where was shelley you ask,,where indeed,,well she has jumped a flight and headed back to baltimore,,for eight weeks,,thats my girl,,,but shes young and i want her life,but i cant so i live through her life and adventures and dream.Fillet steak and cake went down well and a small glass of red wine,Medicine were dispatched,,not my strong point,counting that is,,but my sister in law Elaine assures me the local chemist can do all this for me,,our local chemist is more used to dispensing methodone so maybe shes right,All was going well,,the carers turned up,,on time and realy very nice,,all was going to well,,he was organised and bedded and Itoo exhausted from all the excitment retired ,so there we were two people lying in single bed chatting in the dark,,very bizarre,,then there was silence,we had gone to sleep,,what felt like minutes later there i was,,charlotte can you stretch my legs,,charlotte can you get me some water,,im too hot,,its too quiet,,eh,,and so it went,,agh..1230 am the girls arrived to turn,,and went and on the demands went,,I cant do this i thought,,this will be a nightmare,,i will suffocate him,,im not good with sleep deprivation,,I know i like to wander in the middle of the night,,but its on my terms,,this was an awake nightmare there i was lying in the dark thinking if you ask me to do something else i will kill you,,,but the silence haunted me and peace reigned and thoughts of murder were put on hold.