put on suicide watch

ok well not realy ,,but as i sat at work on late shift ,,lifes a bitch and then you die,,floated in my head,,late shift so i cant see colin,,late shift so i cant do all those thousands of phone calls,,oh well they can be done tomorrow,,and colin understands,,two people told me about their forth coming holidays,,god i hate that,,well not realy but i do feel quite hard done by,,children working out there lives,,how dare they,,social workers telling me they are going on holiday,,oh for goodness sake i get it,,everyone is going off on some 18 to 80 club holiday,,well i hope they all burn,,turn tomato red and get deli belly,,you see im such a nice friend but not when it comes to holidays,,that i envy,,lust over,,but colin and i can sit on his ramp,,the one that can be seen from space,,its now to be called my balcony or terrace,,and shut our eyes and think we are on a cruise,,or barbados or well any where realy,,cocktails will be served,,well at least mugs of tea.and if you pop in ignore the straw donkeys,kiss me quick hats,and two people sitting in shell suits,,matching of course because lifes a bitch and then you die,x