i think im going mad....................

colin is good,,his hours are building,he is working hard in gym,,les visited yesterday,,which colin always enjoys,,stories of work,,it makes colins brain work.I have been constantly on the phone,,trying to talk to ot,s,,doctors social work,,oh yes i have all the fun,,it wares you down and we realy havent started yet,,at one stage i will have to talk to buiders,,electricians,,plumbers,,,my fab painter simon is heading to me on monday,,we need to sort out some rooms,,and i havent even decided on a colour,,its lucky its not to be determined by mood or it would be farrow and ball no 2,,,n o i made that up it would have some rather pleasing name like sludge,,yes slimey sludgey who cares,,reckon i should have been in advertising,,missed my vocation there.There is something in the water in govan,,something turning the wives in the spinal unit mad,,i havent spoken to a single one today who is not on the verge,,,the ward sister decided,,as advised by the infections advisor, that it was time to gut all wards,,well gut they did,,and in the process all the bits on colins tables were moved,,well at 7.30 this evening when i was looking for his remote control my temper was at boiling point,,oh yes i was not a happy bunny,,so marched round to the nurses station,,,where might this essential piece of equipment be.to which some little snippet said,,no problem we will keep an eye out for it,,,so off you go you silly little woman,,,ok so she didnt say the last part,,but it felt like it. Oh no you dont,,,I dont think so,,,i could feel the waves of heat and anger and tiredness starting at my toes,,,im sorry that isnt good enough,,my husband has nothing but his telly when i leave and i suggest someone will be good enough to find the remote control which the staff here have moved,,,well they all looked at me as if ,,god where did she come from,,but quick as look at them a lovely nurse chap jumped and said,,let me help,,possibly before i lunged forward and took that little snippet by the throat,,,and find it he did,,in some other patients station,So Colin was left quite happy watching a movie,,and i headed east,,and the nursing staff were left writing up their notes,,im sure something to the effect of dont mess with Colins wife,,she is mental when suffering from sleep deprevation,,,oh well no surprise there then.