hitting the wall at 110mph

ive been here before,,the black clouds are looming,i have had the worst two days so far,first our grant for adaptions to the house has only partly been approved,,this is a massive blow to us and it hit hard,,it will stop colin access to all but two rooms in his house,,his house that we have worked for since the day we met.it is to raw to talk about but suffice to say i cried for hours and colin was traumautised at his hysterical wife.not good for his moral,but the brick wall was heading towards me at 110 mph.today was no different ,for security reasons i can not divulge information,but lets say i will never understand why people are so strange and take great joy in making peoples lifes horrible and cause trouble,,you know your real freinds when that wall is on its way.i will get over this,,colin is with me and although at this precise moment i could run and run the wall will be hit and i will come out a little bit sore and bruised but still loved.the families in the southern will pick me up,,bev has already started,,they will wipe the tears and listen to the upset,,they will not judge,,mike and bev are in the same place with the same walls,,but they too have come thru,so those people who wait till you have your back turned and then try to steal your thoughts and words and who try and poison your world,,they forget when someone is loved they have the love of everyone they know to pull them thru,,,and bitter hearts are never all owed into that world of mine,,yes there may be brick walls and unscruplous people around every corner but i have colin and my girls and my true freind,,and they have nothing.